It's hard with every child.

I spent most of last year dreading one particular day.  The day my baby starts kindergarten.  Since we're having another baby, I thought maybe it wouldn't be so hard.  But today was that day and it was still hard!  It wasn't any easier or harder than taking Precious to school last year and I'm sure taking the baby to school a long, long time from now will be just as hard.  It didn't matter to me that before long we will have a new baby to snuggle and spend the day with.  What matters is the time I will not be spending with Sissy.  Because while she is at school all day learning important things and making wonderful friends, I will be home NOT spending time with her.   Not playing Barbies with her, not eating lunch with her, and not snuggling with her on the couch watching cartoons.  While I know from Precious, it will get easier each day, I will still be spending today with a lump in my throat wondering what Sissy is doing every moment of today. 

Dear Lord,  Thank you so much for the wonderful girls you have blessed me with.  Thank you for allowing me to stay home and spend all my time with them.  Watch over Sissy as she starts school and has new adventures when I'm not there to guide her.  Remind her that You are with her always.  Guide her to the right friends and bless the relationships that she will make this year.  Help me to adjust to parenting the girls at this stage.  Prepare Sissy and me for the challenges and situations that she will face this year.  As Sissy would say, "Thank you for everything in the whole world."  Amen.

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy.  Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.  For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.  Psalm 5:11-12